Is it rape?

My boyfriend and I had sex one night, he came and that was the end of the sex. We both put our clothes on and we laid and talked to each other. I was lying on top of him because I like having my head on his chest. about 15 mins after he said to me 'lets...

go again' I said no I don't want to. Then he said 'oh come on' while holding me by my shoulders lifting me off of him to put me on the bed to lie on my front. I was constantly saying no, stop it, I don't want to. The next thing I know my pj's were off and he was having sex with me from behind. I don't know what got into him but I started crying while telling him to stop and after he saw me crying he stopped. I put on my pj's and went out the room. He sent me text messages saying hes sorry and he didn't know what happened. I didn't reply to any, and I did not talk to him until the next night after he begged me to let us talk about it. I was so scared of him. He realized how scared I was and how much he had hurt me he just held me really close and tight, and started to cry saying how sorry he was and that he never ment to hurt me, kissing me on my forehead a lot and telling me how much he loves me. I felt sorry for him so I hugged him back and I started to cry too. I forgave him and no one knows about it. The thing is, I can't forget it, I just keep having flash backs. was this rape? can a guy rape his girlfriend, especially after they had sex? what should I do? what can help me clear my mind of this bad memory? Please Please help me!

Anytime someone has unwanted sex with you, its rape.
I watched Oprah and there was this woman talking about it. Her husband did that all the time and they said he could have in fact been charged with rape even though they were married. It doesn't matter if you are in a relationship, it doesn't matter if you had sex a short period of time before, its still rape if you didn't want it and said no.

I agree with ncbaby. From the way you have described it He sound truly sorry. I did not sound like he was trying to hurt you but maybe just playing until he saw that you were not. I am sorry it has made you feel so hurt and scared. If you dont feel comfortable with him then all I can say is maybe you should end your relationship.

I'm so sorry to hear all of this. It must make you really sad as you must feel betrayed. I think that what he did can be classified as rape. Once trust has been broken in that way, I don't know if you can keep the person who has broken it in your life. I must say it's good that you have forgiven him, but maybe you should cut him out of your life.

Any time you say no and he continues to have sex with you it is rape. Married men have been convicted of raping their wives beause they did not want to have sex when there partner did. Im glad he at least said sorry but do you really want to keep seeing this guy? If you are having flash backs it tells me you are not dealing well with what happened. Maybe taking a break from each other so you can deal with what has happend will help?

If you clearly said NO , no matter what the situation it is ALWAYS rape...you should probebly tell someone close toyou or ditch this guy if he intends to take advantage of you again...this makes me think hes only in it for the sex...

It sounds more like half-rape.

It is defenitly rape. And if you don't tell abyone it will get much, much worse. My friend, lets call her x, when she was little her dad raped her and abused her. She never told anyone except for me just a couple of months ago. She didn't want to tell me but she trusted me. But one day we were watching T.V, it was this movie called Speak and it was about a girl getting raped. When it came to the part when it happend, she got up and ran into her closet and started crying. She does not live with her father anymore because he was put in jail, but he has been calling her and calling her and she keeps telling him she doesn't want to talk, but he keeps calling. He thretend her mom and they had to leave for about a week, they went to a city about an hour away and stayed there because they were afraid he was going to come back. This is really messed up I know. But you should really talk to him about it, and maybe a close friend. I really feel terrible about the whole movie thing, just remember to read the info thing first. Hehe that was a bit off subject, but talk to him, and a friend. And maybe just as advise, hold off on the sexual stuff for a while, it will just be awkward because if he is truley sorry, hes going to be scared to hurt you again.
Hope I helped.