Im having trouble looking for a date because of this...

since i was born, i carry this muscle desease that gets worse about every year(muscular dystrophy). i didn#039;t know i had this until i was in middle school because it didn#039;t look like i had anything. it became pretty obvious that there was...

something wrong with me by the end of 5th grade because i kept running hecka slow and got tired really quick from doing P.E. and going on field trips. i hated P.E. because i would remember guys making fun of me, pointing fingers at me and stuff like that. girls did make fun of me behind my back spreading rumors and hiding my lunch boxes and stuff but the guys were worse because they use to trip me and take up all the seats on the rug when it came to story time. I got along with adults more then those kids in my class. i had tuns of adult friends who use to tell me that i was too mature and that i should just try to be a kid. ( i still don#039;t know what that meant ).
in middle school, i found out what i had and i became real depressed. i almost failed all my classes and got picked on even more such as spitting in my face, calling names in my face, etc. etc. ( those were guys by the way )
Oh but in 6th grade, this one ugly ass jerk asked me out by filling my locker full of roses and sent 2 big pink balloons to one of my math classes. i was so embarrased, happy but also felt confused. i immediately said, quot;nah. im sorry but i can#039;t go out with you. but thanks for everything you gave me.quot; and glad i didn#039;t go out with him because he later ended up picking on me too because at that time he asked me out, he didn#039;t know i had this desease. and distinctly said,quot; oh sick im so glad i didn#039;t go with her,oh man! i didn#039;t know she was crippled! shiet! quot; right behind me so that i can hear. i wasso shocked, i couldn#039;t say anything.
when i got into 7th grade, i met 2 girls that became my BEST friends. they would back me up when i got picked on since they had a reputation at school for beating up guys. after i met them, they introduced me to so many other girls that the guys just stopped messing with me. it was all good for a while untill i got into the end of 8th grade.
at the end of 8th grade i had to go have a surgury done to correct my spine since my muscles were too weak to support them. i missed about 3 and 1/2 months of my first year in high school. when i went back to school, i couldn#039;t walk straight, i was wobbling side to side like a chicken! agh! ( and still do ) i lost so many quot;friendsquot; including one of my BEST friends. My other friend kept in touch with me and supported me. all the other girls just simply started to ignore me. one girl even told me not to talk to her because i embarrass her!! i was like agh! biatch! and still kept talking to her, just to bother her (ehehe). Then all of em#039; started to have boyfriends and sissy stuff like that and i was left behind~~
2 guys asked me out like in sophmore year but i turned them down (yes, nicely, and politely) because the first guy was all dirty and stinky and sweat a lot. the 2nd guy seemed like he had turbuculosis and just couldn#039;t stop shaking. he also stalked me for a couple of weeks after i turned him down. The only thing he asked me was, quot; could you be my friend? quot; and i said,quot; oh yea sure quot; and then all of a sudden he just grabbed my hand the next day and shouted, quot; I, I love youquot; and i was so embarrased and shocked i flung his hand away from me and wobbled to my next class. day after day he waited in front of my class and followed me out untill finally he said he wanted to talk to me. i immediatly said, quot; no i don#039;t want to talk to you! if you like me, then you would understand my feelings. quot; even after i said that, he still followed me!! i was so scared but then one day, he just stopped. i was so relieved.
by the time i got to be a junior, girls and guys started to change... they both started to talk to me and was all nice to me too. some guys/girls even apologized for how they acted in middle school and stuff. so i guess that was nice of them. they even introduced me to cute looking guys but i always found flaws in them. they say that the reason i can#039;t go out with anyone is because deep inside im still afraid of them. i don#039;t know why i can#039;t say yes. i know that i get all scared and nervous around them but i don#039;t know how to deal with this feeling. egh.

Honestly honey, before you go out with someone, I think theres a few things you need to realize. Like one, you mentioned the shaky guy? (Yes wrong he stalked you) but you said you wouldn#039;t date him because of the shaking thing. No offence honey, but he aint the only one with a problem, you have a disease too just like he does. Second of all, your NOT gonna find one person on the face of this earth that doesn#039;t have a flaw!

I think you should really realize that people do have flaws, start worrying about what YOU think and not what others think about you...then you should find yourself a guy.

If a guy asks you out amp; he has a flaw...so what? Give him a chance...because if you turn down every single guy that approaches you that has a flaw, your gonna be turning down A LOT of guys, because I don#039;t know of one person that doesn#039;t have flaws....

Good Luck!!!!

Love Always,
Heather

Well my advice to you is to not look on the outside look in the inside. Like you said you didn#039;t like getting teased and called names. So do you think you should judge people. I mean you shouldn#039;t be that way. You should treat others how you want to be treated. You should get over the physic thing and start looking deep inside.

Good Luck!! God Bless.....

that was such a sad true story if i was there i would have treated you like you were my sister i hope you get better but u did a good job you just need to stick out more so even more people could notice you soon they will you are just blessed with full of kidness i wish some of the h8ters at my school were like that all you need to do is just go with life you can change things that happend in your life now Good Luck!!!