I need help!! please anybody, somebody...help!

When me and my best guy met 5 years ago, he instantly had a crush on me, but I didn't quite feel the same way. 3 years passed from then and I started liking him, because we grew close, but I never said anything about it because I thought his feelings for...

me passed and were only a phaze he was going through. But then last Thanksgiving we were at his house just hanging out and I was feeling depressed because just looking at him made me want to tell him how I felt, so I just sat in the corner of his room, trying to seem invisible, then his friend came along and asked me if I was feeling okay, and I lied and said yes. Someone decided to turn out the lights and well, I guess me and my crush's friend began making out and some dumbass turned the lights back on, exposing me and my crush's friend's senario. I was embarrassed at the fact that I didn't feel like that towards my crush's friend and noticed my crush had a shocked look on his face, and left the room. A week passed and I decided to ask him why he got kinda mad on that one night, and he told me it was because he wanted to be my first kiss. I felt so happy inside that I thought we might end up together. Then tragedy happened and my friend developed a crush on him as well. I guess he forgot about his recent feelings and decided to ask her out. So now I feel heartbroken and ugly inside. I kill myself over the thought of them being together, because I've been waiting 5 years for god sakes! I don't know what to do and I wish he'd see how much damage this is causing me. I try not to sound selfish but I fail. Please somebody, anybody, tell me what should I do. Send me an email or comment or something, because I need serious help! Thank You for your time.

I sorta went threw the same thing with this girl I had a crush on, and went for it but ended up with my best friend. It took a while to adjust to it and I couldn't be in the same room as them. Unfortunatley there's nothing much you can do now and this is where you wish you had a time machine and you could go back and kick your self in the ass for what you did.

I believe you'll get you chance to be with him but you missed out on it this time..if you want to try and do something tell him exactley what you told us and you wanted to kiss him and not his friend that night. You were depressed cause you didn't know how to approach him.

Give it a try, but I don't think there's much you can do now....you waited 5 years so what's a little time more.

Good luck blossom