I'm having an affair with a man i would die for

I am only 23 and coming from a marriage that was pretty damn awful to put it lightly. I divorced by the time I was 21 and was happy being the single girl with a bright future. But as time went on, I could never see myself with any of the guys that I...

liked or who had asked me out. Eventually, I came into contact with a guy from the internet who sad right away that he was married and that he just wanted some mates to hang out with. I figured why not since my friends are my family. My family have split up and no one talks to each other. Been that way for years. so we met up...and we clicked so much we spooked one another out with how much we were alike and the things we enjoyed. 7 months later and it keeps on gorwing and getting better. But his wife has been having an affair with a guy also shortly after he met me and she has become pregnant. (he's not sure if it's his or not).

He then started to mention about leaving her...so of course, this made things harder for me and 1 day as he was about to leave to go home to her, I broek down into tears asking him not to go. He stayed for as long as he could and the result was a huge argument when he got home which made me feel guilty. we've gone to such extremes with one another in terms of trust and experience...but now I'm not sure what to do. He comes over more and more even though he gets himself into deeper trouble...he's even missing work to see me. And when he cant see me, I go upto him and we drive around for hours just to spend time. I can't sleep or think right when he's not around and when he is, I've never felt so happy in years. I just want him in my life always but I know that I would be the home wrecker....and now I don't care anymore...

You are the lowest form of life. Leave this married man alone and start acting more like a lady instead of a crying selfish slut.