I feel like crap either way about this

I know it is long but please read!

Last week this guy and I were talking and I dont remember how this came up and I said 'I've gotten involved in too many bad things to be good enough for that...' He said 'Like what?' And I thought 'Ok, I''ve known this guy all year, I trust him, im going to tell him.' So I said 'Things like inhalant abuse'. Fast forward to today, and he asked me if I had stopped, I said no, becuase I did it last saturday (that was the day after he last asked) He asked if I do it when im really depressed, I said yes, he said 'What do you have to be depressed about? You dont have a hard life, do you?' I said no, I have good parents and everything, but theres more to sadness than that. (a lot of my depression is someone no one would suspect-my sister).

He just does not understand. With people who have never been sad for long periods of time, never cut etc., its like the only reason people have to be depressed is if they practically dont have a home! Thats not true though-there are many people who have good homes yet are addicted to cutting and such, like me. Only I know my story, and I dont need to tell him every part of it. He made me feel like crap! Like I should be happy all the time! Now I feel guilty about not being happy, yet I also feel guilty when I am happy! Im very confused. Help me!

 
nirvanafan,

You don't give your sister's age or what it is that depresses you about her and your relationship.

Whether it's someone here on Fun Advice or somewhere else, you need to talk with someone. Granted a counselor would be best but if that isn't available to you then people at one of the help hotlines that are available and they keep you anonymous. Please, find someone to talk with.

I am re-giving you the information on two hotlines/links that are designed to give you aid and assistance with whatever problems you think you have. Life is too precious to be wasted in sadness and depression. Please make contact with someone.

 
If you are having problems or are depressed, below are a couple of sites that may help you:

Worldwide:

Check out the Befrienders link below. They are not only a suicide hotline but also offer help to people who are stressed or are in a state of depression.

http://www.befriende...

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If in the U.S.A., you also have access to:

Girls and Boys Town National Hotline

Call With Any Problem, Any Time

1-800-448-3000

http://www.girlsandb...

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Well, you probably shouldn't be depressed, if you always feel guilty, then you can probably be happy if you try doing community volunteer work. Get a volunteer job aat an animal shelter or something. You shouldn't ever feel guilty about being happy. You may also have a disorder, but I wouldn't look into it until you're way older when your hormones aren't crazy. Remember that if you tell someone only half of the information, especially the nonexplaining half, they aren't going to know everything magically, and will make an assessment based on what you tell them. It is fine not to tell someone everything, but just expect what it is they will think of you and don't judge them too badly for it. Who knows, his dad or mom could be a depressed substance abuser, and if you're a child of someone like that, it really messes with you ,so you will be very opposed to anyone else who is doing the same. So remember that he may not be telling you all of everything that goes into his decisions either. If you want to ask anything else just funmail me,
Brian D.

you know yourself dont you
and it would help if you could find a better way to help your self
by helping others