I don't know what to do

I really don't know what to do right now I have no one else to go to but strangers on the web but even though you don't know me please listen to my story and help me... Two nights I had come home from work and did some chores around the house then headed...

to bed, I was woken up a few hours later to someone touching me and found myself completly naked tied to my bed with duct tape and a man standing over me and touching me all over I started screaming for help and he hit me then duct taped my mouth shut he then proceeded to rape me and clench his hands around my throat. This continued for three hours of me drifting in and out of consciousness as this man raped me...He finally stopped and left but he left me tied to my bed to be found the next morning by my neighbor who saw my door open...I've gone to the police and filed a report with them and I've also been to the hospital and beside a bruised esophagus I'm fine...but I can't get this out of my head I can't have my boyfriend touch me with out my mind going back to that night and freaking out. Do any of you know what I can do to get this out of my mind I need to live a normal life but I don't know if I can and the worst part is they don't think they'll be able to catch him because I couldn't give a good description of him..I just don't know what to do.

sadly I cant help yo you exept to say that you might be able to remember somthing later if you put it out of my mind now hope this helps and if you ever want 2 talk I can relate so e-mail me

this just happened, you need to give yourself time to heal... your body takes a while to heal when it's been injured, why would you expect the rest of you to be perfect in 2 days? It will get better, but you have to talk to someone. This may be my prejudice, but I think it's the best way to deal with it. Because sometimes there's a lot of different emotions you gotta deal with and having someone who is trained to listen will help...

There's this site, www.rainn.org, you can talk to people online, you can call into the hotline, they'll talk to you...

this is probably going to sound dumb but its the only thing I can think of. have you ever tried meditation? you can find video guids online that will walk you through it and it can really help clear your head and make you feel better. I laughed so hard when a friend asked me to try it but if you give it a good honest attempt it cant hurt right? I feel so awful for you and I hope you find the help you're looking for.

The site might help you, but personal interaction might be better. I don't know what would be close to where you live, but there are support groups that will help you. They are most likely all local, so you'll have to find your local one on your own. No one else has said it, but way to speak out. I know that this is a difficult time for you, but many women do not report what happened to them. Way to be strong and hopefully they will catch this guy.

wow; you cant really say thats happend to people before;

but you should really try to forget it; and getting a bofriend might even help you forget, you just need the rite guy.

DONT TRY TO SHOVE THIS OFF AND DONT LET YOUR BOYFRIEND TOUCH YOU! its normal for rape victims to be really freaked out about being touched after an attack so gou get some therapy and you'll be good as new in no time