I cant take my mind anymore

first since 3 years I was living with my dad he used to treat me so bad I couldnt take it anymore I ran from home once and it didnt work my mom lives in an another country and she doesnt know anything and if she knew shes not gunna do anything I started...

to spend a lot of time in my room thinking about what to do one day I started to imagine things in my mind like that I dunn have any issues in my life and that made me see things that does not exist once I saw my mom walkin in my room and I was sittin on my bed studying I asked her mom is that you she just walked away out of the room and I wasnt afraid I dunno why but I was shocked that long road took me to another thing playing mind games on people I stared playing mind games on my friends make them do things that I want them to do even change their look thats all by playing with their minds and when I talk to a person for like 4 hours I know whats that person think like and I can change that person thoughts if I wanted to I can do anything to any one just by playing mind games I reached to a position which is I play mind games to every one I know I even get online and I people I dunno them I play with their minds and I just dicovered that I tricked my own mind I got a lot of thoughts in my head about my self and why I do that to people my mind is gunna explode because of thinking at the beginning I thought its somthing good but no now its destoying me and because of a foolish mistake my parents cought me drinkin and they are coming tomorrow to see me and they told they are gunna treat me evern worse and I dunn want to lose my self please I need help I cant take it anymore I just want all that to stop

Chill - you're going to be just fine - apologize strongly and realize when you're young it's not uncommon for anyone to do something foolish - not thinking it through or considering consequences - this too will pass...I wish you every happiness in your future...now make it happen !!