I can't have an org**m with my boyfriend!

I am 19 and have a boyfriend of 3 years and I have never had an org**m with him and he doesn't know. The only way I can get off by myself is by rubbing against a pillow while I read or watch porn. I was going to try to learn how to rub my clit to org**m so I could do it while we are having sex but I can't make myself c*m like that either! My boyfriend and I are each others firsts so he isn't great at fingering me or going down on me and I would love to be able to tell him what to do but I dont even know what to do. I've read all the websites about "getting to know yourself" and have even used a vibrator but I the only way I can org**m is with a pillow...HELP!

I so understand...we in the same boat sweetheart...

Same here! Let me know if you find out anything good. My boyfriend is very experienced, but we still can't get me to org**m... I get so close, but it just doesn't happen.