How have i become this person?

This has been a tough year for me. My parents have divorced, my grandma is ill..after two years I've lost the one girl I've ever loved. It seems like I have just become a depressed person. It seems like my hobby is getting high with my cousin which I...

never had a smoking problem, last year I was so against it. I've just become a totally different kid I just want to be who I was but im afraid times have changed and its to late. Imiss the good times. what do I do?

its a way of dealing with you feelings,sounds like your having a pretty ruff time, I know its hard at first when your parents get divorced but trust me it does get a hel of a lot easyer!! im sry 2 hear about your gran being ill ihope she gets better soon. instead of smoking why dont you do out instead? try and do other things go out with your friends? instead of smokin with your because? , my parents divrorced, I came out of a nasty 3 and a half yr relatinship I drank loadz I left skwl 2 years before I was ment to I then moved on 2 coke, but then I realised I was makein more problmes for myself!, I got my life sorted I started college an doing someting that I really love doin!!! I stoped doing coke I would go out with different friends who didnt do drugs so I wouldnt me temted I stoped drinkin every day and I've met the most amazing person ever! an now im engaged, so try and look for something that your really in to and try to be that person you was, it will be hard at 1st but trustme it will all work out in the end good luck!! xx