My mum found out she had terminal cancer last may

Well.. My mum found out she had terminal cancer last may, it was heartbreaking 3 months later we moved to the opposite end of the country, I had to leave my friends and all my happiness, I've been up here a year + a few months, during the year and few...

months I have changed so much, im cryin almost all the time I've been drinking and taking hard drugs, cutting myself, lost almost 4 stone, im a size 6 now, im always depressed, I've made new friends but am loosing them because of how I am, im never up for a laugh anymore, never really want to go oout unless theres drink involved, I had to have a social worker because I was skipping school and stuff, she kept pressuring me into gettin a mental health worker so I could talk I dont want to talk aboout my life to any one im ashamed of it to be honest, I hate my life, I've tried to overdose 3 times and each time I ended up on a life support machine, this didnt help my mum either, the cancer has spread all over her body, shes not like she ised to be any more =( its heartbreaking to come home from school and see her the way she is and she onli has til this christmas to live, I dont think she's going to live that long because shes always cryin because of the pain she's in, never out of hospital for a ful month, I hate my life, I want everythin to go back to how it was but its not going to, I really cant cope with my life style at the moment, every one seems so happy and I just feel like im dragging them down, I dont want to talk to my family members because each time I've tried to, they just seem to shrug me off it isnt fair, the drugs and drink seem to help me as they take me away to another place and help me forget about what is going on, the cutting seems to do the same, once I cut I see the heart ache coming out of me, then once the cuts start to heal its like its all being trapped inside me again! Please? Anyone who could help me, or is in the same situation give me soome advice on what to do, my mums the onli person I have left in my life and the fact that I know im gnna loose her, she wont be able to see me grow up, have children or anything im only 15 its hard to cope. So please help. Thankyou so much x

oh my god. I feel sooo bad for you. this almost made me cry. please, please don't do anything to harm yourself. Please quit drinking, smoking, doing drugs, and cutting yourself for your own sake. If you even need to, get a therapist or addict couselor to help you. You should also gain a little bit of weight. Maybe if you start to act better and start to be a better person, then maybe your mom will start to feel better. I hope the very best for you. who knows, maybe your mom will have a remarkable recovery. if you need anything, please just comment me or funmail me. good luck!!!

hey I was told that my mother had breast cancer and it killed me I was depressed didnt want to go out or nothing. but it will get better belive me please stop drinking and taking drugs your mother would never want that. I know things are hard. my best friends mam died and her dad got locked up she was on 12 her sister 16 and her brother 6. it was very hard she was moved away to and I never heard from her but I made sure I would find her and I did still 5 years later she is so cool she is accepting the fact her mother is gone she dosnt do drugs or anything the same thing will happen to you to. im sorry about your mother and dont mean to be harsh but if she has til christmas stop being depressed and make good of the time take photos with her play bord games do anything that yous are up for
I hope things go well for you
xxx

I feeel everything that you are going trough my brother who is sick lives on a mashine, and I take care of him and I was really depresed and I also took cutting as a getaway. and aomrtimes it feels like is the end of the world to have somebody you love sick and know that he/she is going to die, I live whit that fear everyday whit my mom and dad, but you also have to say to yourself that if that pearson you love wanting something in the wole world what would it be? That you succed, that your life goes on because that pearson has given everything for you, and you have to show that, be strong and know that there are people to care, I also feel alone but you know what, sometimes if we go on alone we can get higher. We never want to go on in life depending on somebody else, keep your head up and realize that this is only an obstacle that is in front of you and that your going to overcome it and see if people out there can over come worst mmments then you can overcome your moment too. The key to overcoming tough momments in our life is never giving up and moving on, dont give up, and dont take self injury as a getaway, and dont even think about killing yourself, your more than that and im sure your mom would not want you to be like this.
If you ever need to talk to somebody or feel that you want to cut or so something else E-mail me im here to help, I know what you are going trough and im ganna help you, just remember that you are not alone.
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My mum also has terminal cancer and I understand how you are feeling. Although you feel like the drugs and drink blot it out, they don't make it go away. The pain will ease, I promise - I've lost one parent already and it does go eventually. I've done allsorts in my time including all sort of drugs, and honestly it doesn't help. The best thing you can do is really stop trying to blot it out, spend as much time with your mum now and tell her all the things you feel and how much she means to you. You'll be making it worse for her, as all she will want to do is look after you and she can't. Yes you probably don't want to hear that, but think about making the most of what time you have with her now, rather than spending it blotto - you'll thank yourself once she's gone. Yes your in pain, and I understand that - my mum has a few months to live and is bald through chemo - but this is time to make the most of what you have with her. You can't say your sorry you drowned your sorrows and that you loved her when she's gone.

Don't worry about doing so much with new friends and all that right now, stick with those that understand, even its over the phone or internet - keep your brave face for the new friends and let it all out with those already close to you.