It seems like everything is falling apart

it seems like everything is falling apart, things were going so good at once and now it seems like things couldn't be any worse. my birthday is saturday, and I only want one thing... alan... and I know I'm not going to get it. I made a big mistake by breaking up with him,and I wish I could take it back, I mean I know it's got to be hard for him too. he says he likes me still, but I don't know, I want to believe him, but it's hard, because I don't know, it's just hard. he's the first guy I've really been in love with and, he's not like nost guys, ya know. and his smile just ahhh it makes me melt inside, and his eyes are soo adorable. girls... you know how it is, when you find a guy that every time you talk to him he gives you those butterflies that no other guy can, and when you hear his name or see his picture all you can do is smile. and when your talking to him, it's like nothing else matters, and all your problems just fade away, even if it is just for 5 minutes. and like no matter how much you try to get over him, it just don't work. and like just talking to him makes your day. and when you know he's the guy that completes you, the guy that fills that place in your heart. and that you can't really explain how you feel about him because you can't find the words to day it. and how he's the guy that you would travel to the ends of the earth to make him happy, and he's the guy you'd do anything for. with him, he just, makes everything seem so real, he's the only guy that really understands me, and yea.

I mean, I really like this guy if ya'll can't already tell, it's just he confuses me sooo much. I mean we'll talk for a day or two, and then he ingores me. but he's the type of guy you hate going a day without talking too. I mean I don't know what to do anymore, I've been waiting for him since october, and please I jusst need some girl advice on this... thanks

I have to say I have a speacil guy exactly like that in my life but anyway all I have to say is try talking to him about your situation and why he occasionally confuses you and stuff like that. It may straighten everything out and you two may get back together, if you two dont and hes being stubborn then e probably isnt worth it, but then again when you love someone that much its hard to think they arnt worth it