Feeling low.

I've had it whit things. I feel sad and the presure makes me cut myself and I dont know what to do. I'm getting my anger or feeling out on too manny things, I cry at night when nothing happened and I'm in school and tears drop all of a suden. I try ti...

think if its that I have a feeling or something, I've always been strong and have hated craing! But know I'm doing it like everyday. My dad dont sopport me and lets not talk about ma mom.
I've thought about suicide but I only get to the part where I open the bottle of morphine.
I dont do ma homework and I'm alredy in my second suspention and I'm getting a popular reputation at school that might be good at first but then I notice how stupid it is.
Does anobody know where I can go on line so I can talk to someone.
I'm 14

wow. that sounds just like how I was last year.
I always thought life was such a effing b*tch, you know?
But then I thought about how life will be once I turn 18 and can move out of this effing hell hole my mother likes to call home.
so I started doing my homework; started focusing more one school.
I found my escapes, although there we're only two:
going up to Tualatin every now and then to hang out with my friend, Lindsey.
And then there's going up to o.c to hang out with some of my other good friends, and now boyfriend as well.
Sure I still do have those thoughts about suicide, but they don't come along as often as they used to now.
And I can't remember the last time I cried myself to sleep. (:
but anyways, wow. sorry about that..
you could always find someone on this website and talk to them.
And here's a list of others:

Here is a website for teens, about dealing with depression:
http://www.helpguide.org/mental/depressi…

Here is a website where you can find a lot of information about depression, especially in teenagers:
http://www.helpguide.org/mental/depressi…

Here is some random test I found to see if you're depressed:
http://www.findingstone.com/services/tes…

Also check out some of these other websites.
http://www.about-depression.com/articles…
http://www.teendepression.org/
http://www.about-teen-depression.com/

If you are depressed, show this to your parents or legal guardians so they can help you deal with your depression
http://www.depression-guide.com/depresse…

There is a section on the above site that addresses parents on how to help their teen with depression.

sounds like most of my childhood, in all honesty,there are so may things you can do(such as talking to people online, taking quizes) to try to help yourself, but the bottom line is you will eventually have to get professional help. Why not start no, instead of later when it might get worse?

I'm just like you, ecsept minus the suicide part. Dude, I got some older mentor, he's like my dad, just minus the drunk and dickhead part. If you ever want to talk with me or something, hit me up. Things'll get better man, trust me.