Falling apart.. i need some help!

Ok. I dont know if you have heard of him, but his name is Bill Kaulitz from the band, Tokio Hotel. And I'm completely head-over-heels for him. And I'd honestly give up anything to be with him. And I have cut my writst because of it, and I have been...

depressed... I can't get over him. Because of that I have no self-esteem, or any confidance what so ever. And I cry every night for him... Does anybody have any idea of what I can do to raise my self esteem back? And make everything better?

..okay...I just have to say this before giving you advice, YOU DO NOT KNOW HIM. dont take offense or anything because of this but honest to god, you love someone that you dont know from the inside. And to cut your wrists for him...is he going to want you to do that? he wont ever know that you cut your wrists for him, and if he ever does, he will feel pity for you. NOT LOVE.
now..to bring up your self esteem..how about going out with a few friends? go to an arcade or to watch a movie! or talk with other guys! and DONT compare them to this bill dude because for one thing, bill wont ever give a hoot [because there are probably thousands of other girls just like you in the world, head over heels for him] and the guys around you are probably MUCH better than him..atleast you're able to talk to them on a daily basis!
Also, broaden your horizon. Listen to other music. What I do is..I don't look at the picture of the bands. Because that makes me narrow minded. I want to listen to their music, not fall in love with their faces. so listen to some new music, but dont look at the bands pics. and if you must, dont do it too much.
I dont know if any of this is helping or making things worse for you, but hun...reality check! getting depressed and hurting yourself for a dude that you have never met, or never talked deeply with is not good! he doesnt know you, you dont know him. [and learning facts from online, or hearing him talk on the radio, or falling in love with his lyrics doesn't mean you know him. it means you know what you hear. but people are different from the inside.]
just calm down. stop cutting. chill with some friends. go out. listen to something other than them. and find someone near you that you click with. that'll make everything atleast better than how it is now.

hey sorry but sporty is right. you do not know him!! I mean I have this friend who is obsessed over about 50 guys so dont worri about it. I mean if she sees one of these people in the hall at school or they say hi or run into her or something she completely flips out. as for the self esteem I think that to raise it, try to take it slow. I mean stop reading the lastest sh*t about him and only listen to his music ocassionally. try to talk to your friends about this. maybe they will understand if you try to talk to them.

you DONT KNOW A THING ABOUT HIM! all you know is what HE WANTS YOU TO KNOW! sorry for the harsh-ness
try to get your mind on other guys that are realistic
you can be crazy over celebs but don't take it over board like cutting your self... trust me cutting or any form of mutilation doesnt end well... I knoe a lot about this stuff

if it helps my mom is a phychologist and she said to do other things than think about him. like talk to frans and/or hang out with attractive guys that you knoe.
and my mom said maybe the reason your fealing like this may result your relationship with your father brother uncle... ect.
try to fix your relation-ship with your father or somthing,

if this helps let me tell you some of my probs that are similar...
I cut myself and I had to LIVE in a crazy bin for 7 MONTHS!
I NEARLY DIED from the cuts
I lost a lot of blood more than the doctors themselfs can imagine.
but luckly I held thru
and after my healing and after I got out of that phsyco place
they asked me why I cut myself
and it was over a guy at SCHOOL!
and I cant imagine getting like that over a celeb
if it was a celeb I probably wouldnt be here telling you this right now

so please life is preciouse
hell is worst
god gave us men for mating and creating the human race not for depression!

I can tell you from touring with a rock band for years, once they step off of the stage, most rock musicians are just horny, sweaty, drunk guys who don't really care much about you except that you buy their records, and are most likely the exact opposite of the fantasy person you've made them.

You're harming yourself because you think you are in love with someone who doesn't know you exist, and who will never know you

Read that back over and over. It doesn't make much sense.
I would like to be with Jessica Alba for about a month, but how does my being attracted to her change into thinking I love her.

How do you get feelings for him? How do you know anything about him? He's a face and you made up the rest from his lyrics and interviews.

This is a fantasy land and you will look back years from now going W T F ???

I am sorry for your pain, but you are creating the misery and the self-esteem problems.

Snap out of it.
Start Therapy.
You'll be okay. It's okay to be hurt, it's okay to cry. It's NOT OKAY to hurt yourself.
No person is ever worth your life.

This isn't 'love', but instead 'lust' for a girly boy-- Try group talking about homosexuality. I suggest you get a shrink. Cutting wrist is incredibity immature and unreasonable. This will help you raise your self-esteem. If not, standing across the gas station late at night with half your clothes may help. It'll raise your self-esteem high, but not respect towards yourself.

Although I doubt you have any respect for yourself left. Cutting wrists is practically the same as whoring yourself three times with no pay.

Yeah... But when you people are saying hang out with your friends... and so on and so forth... What about if you HAVE no friends because you pushed them all out of your life ?

why would you cut yourself over some guy you will probably never meet in your life more than once if you even meet him at all? you dont really know him. you only know what he wants out there, and it all could be lies. you really need to get over him. being in love with a celeb is like being in love with a book character- its never going to happen. im sorry if that came off in a mean way but you seriously might want to think all that over.

as for your self esteem issues, if you pushed all your friends away, then go do your best to make them understand you and all and attempt to get them back or try to make new friends. go join a club at your school or just start talking to new people. try to live life and have fun.

xoxo
-jaimie ♥

why would you cut yourself over some guy you will probably never meet in your life more than once if you even meet him at all? you dont really know him. you only know what he wants out there, and it all could be lies. you really need to get over him. being in love with a celeb is like being in love with a book character- its never going to happen. im sorry if that came off in a mean way but you seriously might want to think all that over.

as for your self esteem issues, if you pushed all your friends away, then go do your best to make them understand you and all and attempt to get them back or try to make new friends. go join a club at your school or just start talking to new people. try to live life and have fun.

xoxo
-jaimie ♥