Every rose has its thorn...

Lol xD well I was hesitating if I should post this or not, if im being a fool for posting this or a fool for just ignoring this problem that might be or not might be such a big problem. Well ill tell you a long story in a short way if possible.

Well...

it was recently our1st year anniversary [with my boyfriend] so we went to town to enjoy ourselves, I didnt expect anything from him because he let me down at numorous occassions that made me think that if I dont expect anything from him I wont be let down and dissapointed and ill be happy :] so yah... I did that but I told my boyfriend I dont have much money cause my mums making me save up some money and my boyfriend told me not to worry cause he'll pay for everything. I insisted and said I want to pay for some things cause it was our anniversary and I dont wna be the person who wont pay and he told me I could pay for our bus tickets, so I did I paid for our bus tickets which left me with £23 I had £30, I bought him some stuff for an anniversary present which left me £15 or less and then he treated me to dinner and I paid a little bit of it and overall I was left with about £12 or less.

Then he said to give my money to him so we could spend it on boths of us, but that wasnt the case... when I gave it to him he said not to buy this things [we were gna buy stuff for sex things so we could do it for our first time] and that was the only thing we were looking for and instead he wanted to buy things for both of us and I was quite please with that but in the end he spent all of our money on him... Nothinng... completely nothing on me... he told me months ago he wants to get me something special on our anniversary cause valentines he didnt really get me anything, my birthday nothing... and to top that on xmas he gave me money instead... and now nothing at all... he spent my money on him and he got more money than me and he spent all of that on him, he bought a small stuff toys and gave me one and I was thinking Oh wow... I bought myself a small toy... how nice.

I just thought if I didnt expect anything from him, he wont let me down at all... but I never actually thought a person could actually let me down this far... I even made myself think im such a fool for letting him in.. Im such a hard person to get through to and I had a hard time opening up to him about everything; sex, marriage and future. But I never thought ill be dying to get out of his sight and go home!
He told me we were going to the beach and when we were shopping he went behind me and said we can go to an empty beach and you could do it there [he wants me to pleasure him...] I told him no...
And also I thinked to myself and thought I can't believe you made me think about the future... about the future with you... and about changing my mind about sex, and making me want to do it with you!
I used to think that its bad to have sex before marriage until he convinced me its not bad and I felt like its a good thing that I havent given him everything, I mean the only thing he still hasnt have, and thats my virginity.
Of all this time, I only felt I was the only one trying to make an effort in our relationship, I bought things for him which I never did for my ex's when I was with them, I bought him a jacket, promise ring, stuff toys, made him a poem, a love letter, a mixed CD and a frame with our picture. I gave him all of me, and the only thing he did was regret for making me mad at him sometime and only wished he could do this to me and gave this things to me. I was going to say if you really want those stuff stop wishing and do something about it but I thought that was harsh and kept everything from him, cause I love him and care for him soo freaking much that even though im mad at him right now all I want is to hug him and cry. Please help me I dont know what to think, I actually dont care what he did with the money I just wish he would have done something special for me to atleast just tell me how much I mean to him.

Oh dear... I always say what do you do, when the one person who stops you from crying is the person who made you cry? and that's kinda one of those situtions. He doesnt deserve you Hunny, or anything you've given him and he certainly doesnt deserve your virginity so if you still have that keep it until you're married if that was your view to start off with. You should tell him you're upset and go over those times that he failed you and try to show him he let you down. If he cant see it then I would sadly say that you should leave him I know that you dont want to, but you dont deserve to be treated like that. Equally if he sees there's a problem then says he'll change but doesnt you should let him go then too. If you then want to give him a second chance once he realises you're serious then that's up to you, but dont give him anymore than just a second chance.
Sorry Sweetie
You're welcme to talk to me whenever you need to
xox

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