Do i still love him?

I dated this guy for year and a half he treated me sooo good we had so many memories I could look baq and cry everytime they make me smile. we ended up breaking up I ended it because I had this strong feeling were I didnt even want to be near him it was...

so bad when he asked for a kiss I shoved a cookie in my mouth... I figured out why I had this feeling and it was for a really wrong reason because my parents hated him and said I deserve better and exc but only because of his skin color all the time I took it to the head and been a really mean to him ever since then we started gettin to fights well a couple nights ago he did something soo nasty (peed in the street in front of everyone) I thought and my best friends mom saw so we yelled at him(me and my best friend) I called him dirty and he never hadd a chance wit me again he hasnt called in 5 days buh he always calls baq no matter how big the fight why not now? and if I sit here waiting for him to call do I still care? shuld I try again and not care bout wt my parents think? or move on? or what happens if I get him baq and im mean again how do I stop please help mee

IF YOU REALLY LIKE HIM THEN CALL HIM, IF YOU DONT LIKE HIM THAT MUCH THEN DONT CALL HIM, AND ONLY TRY AGAIN IF YOU WANT TO, FOLLOW YOUR HEART, REGARDLESS OF WHAT OTHER PEOPLE SAY, IM NOT SAYING I KNOW WHERE YOU WILL END UP, BUT ALWAYS FOLLOW YOUR HEART WHETHER ITS GOOD OR BAD