Do i actually like him?

Do I actually like him? Or is my heart hanging on to somthing I used to really want? in the past.

Okay me and this boy were seeing each other last summer he is like 3years older then me, I had never kissed a guy at that time and he was gna be my...

first I was rli scared,neverous and then I kissed him and but I was still neverous and he asked me out before but I said I wasent sure if I loved him or not.

Then I went on holiday he told my friend he is gna ask me out when I got back and she told me this the day I was ment to go on holiday becuase we had a passport delay unfortnaley, but we went on holiday a week later and I decided I was going to see how I felt about him and I missed him loads realised I love him.

The day I go back I went on msn and he was on and he dint talk to me and then I found out he went to cinema with some girls and we had an argument and dint speak for like 3? 4 weeks and I still loved him tho I was angry we made up but we dint really speak like bestfriends anymore I told him I loved him like 1month later I think he dint feel the same and he hasent since I've told him twice and he just stops talking to me when I tell him cause I know he don't wna hurt me so he stop talking to me so he dont lead me on.

But anyway from what im feeling now.
I still get the visions of us together when were been together, I feel at atomsphere or a tinkels when we in that shop together. I miss him a lot, I dream about him, he's the last thing I think of when I go to bed, I sometimes think how it could of been and all the songs realte to him (love ones) I think of him. when I see him in the city I thinkle up and my tummy roles and im not sure what to say. but he has a girlfriend now and im kinda jelouse I suppose. but when I look at some of his pictures say to me, why do I want him? How come I like him? Do I really like that boy?

What do you think?

This has kinda happened to me. Like you are together with someone and you break up and you still like them so much but like DEEP inside of you you hope for you 2 to get back together again but you know it wont happen. But hey maybe for you it might. have you tried dating someone else? they could help you get distracted and maybe if you start dating other people you can see that he wasnt the only guy out there for you and Love is a strong word! make sure that you arent confusing it with some other feeling. He didnt treat you right though. dont you think you deserve better? I hope this helped