Depressive episode

crap how do I get out of it fast, its getting bad I just feel like im in a fuzz, aarrghh I hate this...wats the point.

I hope you'll go get professional help to deal with your depression - it is in your best interests - you can do it !! - you're in my thoughts and prayers.

 
Pick someone on Fun Advice whose opinions you like or whose profile lets you think that you could talk with them, and Fun Mail them. You are anonymous and Fun Mails are private, so you could rant and rave with them using them as a sounding board. It would help you to get things out into the open where YOU could see them and give them better consideration.

You need to communicate with someone, so get to communicating!