Depression.

Wow, ok so every single guy I like either doesn't like me back or likes one of my best friends more then me.
I have gorgeous best friends and I always end up second to last best.
I feel like im not good enough for anyone, I just want to runaway and...

never come back or cut reallly deep so I wont have to live at all.
Cutting, right now, sounds most appealing to me.
But...ugh...I just feel like crying...a lot.
The guy I like right now just told me that his ex girlfriend that he is completely in love with just got into a car accident and almost died because she quit breathing twice and shes all hes thinking about...
god, I hate everything and everyone right now
they just all seem to kick me when im already down enough...
Is there anyway I can get all this off my mind...I dont want to break my promises to my friends about not cutting, but right now its ust really hard. I can feel the blade on my wrist...right now pain is all that im craving...help?

pain isnt ganna help I know it feels like it will and at the moment if you do then it will just make it worst I heard of this girl who was in the same shoes you are in and then she got idected to cutting her self she had to go to the er 4 times what I would do if I wear you is just spice my self up try makeing fun outfits like wearing somecool earrings ar a funkey necklace show the real side of you the fun side pain will nver help you it will make it worse there is some one ment for you you just have got to find him just wait he will come along soon

omg dont do it! you should go to myyearbook.com and make one and then secret admire a few people and wait until they reply. thats how I met my boyfriend.