How to feel better about myself?

hay im 24 an I recetly lost my daughter as she was born asleep and I have put so much weight on I dont eat only at night and I wont let my boyfriend touch me I think I luk fat and ugly and every time I diet somthing happens and I end up doing what I do...

all the time I really do want to lose my weight as im scared my boyfriend will go and find him self a size 0 girlfriend I know I will never be skinny as I have a big bone structure but if any one can help please do as I am getting married soon and I want to be able to wear the most beautfulst gothic lolita dress I have seen thanx

I have struggled with my weight as well and have a skin condition that makes it super easy for each pound to create monster stretch marks so I can attempt to relate to your feelings. One thing I want you to understand though is that if your getting married, chances are he wont leave you. and I mean 99% chance he wont. Losing a child is one of the most painful things anyone can go through. My mother had four miscarriages but now has three healthy children. So im sure if you want children later on its absolutly possible. As for you weight problems, You must accept first that you are a beautiful person whos just a worth while as any size two brat. k? I weigh 250 pounds and im happy because my boyfriend loves my body and im not unhealthy. Health is what you should be worried about most of all. Listen though, yoga and excersises that are made for strenthening your vaginal muscles are professed and helping your sex life but honestly, it does a lot more. My thighs and butt were my worst nightmare but these exercises to miracles. I hope you can contact me if you need any support. I wish you best of luck.

First off, be confident that your boyfriend loves you, because if he does, he will stay with you reguardless, Secondly, getting a healthy, balanced diet will defintely help make you feel a lot better and lose weight, I would also consider making it a mission to stay in shape by excersing and other weight related activities, contact me for any further disscusion. and good luck! :]

make the desision that you want to look after yourself. I hope your not haivng guilt feelings over your baby being asleep when she was born im sure you had nothing to do with it. look after yourself and get your confidence back girl then your man will not be able to resist you and you will feel better in yourself. I am sooo sorry about your buba. I bet she was beutiful. allways in your heart. xxx