Boyfriend problams, please helppp.

my ex = cajun.

okay, well my ex is the first guy I ever loved, still love him will always love him,
me him are best friends now.
the other night, I had a halloween party me him slept in the same bed
well we all slept on the floor on a...

matress.
it was. the wall, me, cajun, fenton, jay. then the others were on the lounges shit.
me cajun ended up making out he fingered me, then all my emotions feelings came back to me.
thing is... I had a boyfriend at the time,
the next day we had a fight were on a break now, I'm meeting up with him next tuesday were planning on get back together now.
but I'm not sure if I want to get back with him, I know I'm a awlful person for doing with I did with cajun.
but cajun doesn't want to go out with me cause he doesn't want to ruin our friendship cause it's taken us so long to get where we are now.

but I don't know if I should get back with my boyfriend because my feelings arnt as strong for him anymore,
he doesn't treat me right, he disrespects me, but he tells me he loves me, thing is, he ALWAYS only wants to do sexual shit with me, we never just hang cause he says its boring? so it's not a very good relationship is it.

when I can hang with cajun, he be myself hang talk,

should I give it a go? should I get back with my boyfriend, see how things work? or just leave it?

definately don't stay with your boyfriend if :
a. you dont have the same stong feelngs for him
b. if he doesnt treat you right
(ps you prob cheated on him bc you dont like your relationship)
(and if things are only sexual, well you know thats not right)
(sex is an accessory. sex shouldnt make up a relationship)

also... dont expect cajun to become your boyfriend just bc he fingered you.

best of luck
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