Bi polar? or what please help me i need help

Well here I will do my best to describe my self to you about my illness. In this guide to knowing more I will explain in plain detail.

First off I was born in 1991 I am 17 years old heres my story I am always angry I get in to fight I break things I...

have all these weird thought that manifest me and I am on drugs I've done everything from cocaine to mushrooms pills, weed, nitrous oxide, salvia. I started getting really depressed when I turned 13 I stayed in my basement on the computer in the summer. I have these weird moods where I dont like if it light out. I think of killing my self. I have delusions I think I hear things sometimes. I dont know what I can do to help my self I need something to help I want to die right now at this moment because I cant deal with my self and all the things I've done. Im to the point of no turning back and whatever else.

I want to know if there is anything on what it might be I dont know if if I am skit bipolar personality disorder anxeity or what ever

Here is some more things I've done bad I broke doors, smahed walls, beat up my sisters and brother, make fun of people for no reason my parents are mean sometime but I love them with all my heart that hard for me to say cause I am so shy or social pathic or what ever

It is not possible for anyone to diagnose you online.
To top it off, because of all the drugs you've used, even a counselor or a psychologist probably arent going to be enough.
You're going to have to go see a psychiatrist to see if the delusions and paranoia are drug induced (yes, drugs do funny things with your brain, days, weeks, months or years later, it's kinda why they're illegal).