Am i that bad?

well my friend never texted me our routine good morning hun text. yeah it doesnt seem that bad. but 2 days ago I told him I was bulimic and he freaked out and was like I need to tell my parents and I need to get help... well I cant tell my parents......

it is a trust issue thing and he knows that. Now he is threatening me that if I dont stop this week he is going to tell my parents,but whatever. it wont make anything better. just worse

he wont text me back either...

he has been with me through everything! he was always there for me when I was at my worst when I cut and was drugged by a friend... I know I am not going to stop. I have before but I am not going to stop forever... I rely on that to make me happy. and he just wants to take that away...

Now here's the question part and I dont want any Bulimia/cutting is unhealthy crap you don't know how many times I have heard that and stuff... but, am I as bad as I think I am...? was he right just to give up on me like that? or am I just horrible enough to give up on?

he giving up on you
because he doesnt want to watch you
kill yourself

It's not that you are horribe enough to give up on, but that you need to realize how bad what your doing really is. It doesn't just hurt you, it hurt him too, more than you know. He probably feels helpless that he has a friend hurting herself like this and he knows that if he tries to talk to you that you will just brush it off, because well, people that do these kind of things do brush them off like nothing. Example: Don't tell me any bulimia/cutting is unhealthy crap

Do you really expect people to just be like, oh okay, thats not important anyways. Of course it is, thats why your friend is so concerned with getting help for you. Your lucky you have a good enough friend to react that way. Be grateful and realize his point of view too.

Long term it causes ulcers in the esophagus, and the acids eventually erode away tooth enamel.

YOU aren't bad, just some habits need fixed.

Well I assume you already understand that there are dangers of bulimia and self harm which are two very touchy and big subjects. you really should talk to someone though, for your mental sake. I just got out of a hospital for poor mental health and it's not fun, so try to catch this before that degree. I'm sorry if this isn't what you want but it's worth a shot. I know what it feels like to feel addicted to a certain pain. and I know you can't stop cold turkey cause it's just like a person who is addicted to drugs or smoking,

I really think you should calla hotline, google some free teen hotlines for your needs,

most if not all are completely confidential. so you parents won't find out, even though you may want to tell them if you feel you may lose ALL control. the people on the hotline are very nice and they will listen, some of them even give very good advice. you can talk to them about your friend that won't respond to you.

your friend may not be able to comprehend that you have a serious situation on your hands and he may need time to breathe. he might be trying to do a tough love type of thing. tell him that you are trying to fix it and that you are talking to someone about. tell him you need his support and that you will tell your parents if you are crashing down.

sometimes girls can fix things like this on their own, and then they can tell their parents that they need help such as a therapist for depression, or a mood disored,

but you need to tell, call, do something if you feel like you want to kill yourself or anything of that sort, because that is something that you cannot control, especially when you are in a different and depressed state of mind.

funmail me if you need anything, I'm behind you 100%

goodluck!

I went through this during high school, it is very intimidating to try and perfect your body. bulimia seems like the easy route but it leads to very severe health issues in the future.
I advise you seek help, it's always good to have a friend there to help. Try working things out with your friend.

well I became bulimic since I was like 11 and now if I just over eat just a little bit, I puke it up anyway not even on purpose any more and I throw up blood a lot, I have tear in my esophagus.
but anyway dude all you need is love and to belive people care about you, and to find that you have contoll in other things other than bingeing and pruging.
I never thought I would ever try to stop b.c I didnt really care that much lol. it was just my daily rountine and no one was gunna scew that up for me.
but just start talking to someone you trust and let everything out.
even if you stop pukeing it takes 6 years to fully recover from an eating disorder
it sucks, sometimes I mess up,but its a daily stuggle. and ED will be in your head for a long time unless you over power it and trust me its possible I swere!
life without ED is a lot diffent but a very good kind of differnt.