A violent streak

Theres a boy who I have been seeing for about two or three years now...on and off, as friends as more than friends. I went out with another boy in between then. This other boy made me happy while the boy I had gone out with didn't seem to care much. but...

then the other boy's ugly side came out. He was in my drama class and he played a character that killed his wife because she cheated on him. It was dark humor, that of Christopher Durang. It was funny until his anger was real...not just acting. He'd told me before if you have something from your life that you feel use it in your acting and his rage was what he had. Rage that I was liked in the class better than he was and rage at how I liked other boys in the class and I suppose how I wouldn't act like I was going out with him and was ambiguous on the issue. Then he confided in me about how he would like to pop people's heads open in grand theft auto (that game should be banned) and the only movies that where his favorites were movies with extreme gore. The Chain Saw Massacre (the original) for some reason got him to laugh which may have been okay because of the whole psycology issue but something didn't feel quite right. One of his other favorites is Pulp fiction...which is interesting but the gore is pretty extreme. and every time we kissed he'd bend me backward push me backward so i would tremble trying to keep standing. I guess it wasn't meant to be but he's so hurt and I feel guilty and responsible because I wasn't totally honest with him all the time and I didn't say like screw off so he's not really healthy anymore...I am not the first one who hurt him though, his girlfriend who had sex with him hurt him because she was using him just for the sex and didnt love him when he loved her. He seems really depressed, like exhausted or dead inside, like he has no joy anymore. I feel really bad for him and I wish I could have a magic wand to just *dink* over his head and then he would be good as new and happy.

Honey, his unhappiness is not your problem, but since you see to really care about him, maybe you should tell the a teacher or someone that you can confide in. Many people get hurt, orscrewed over, but they go on and they do not act , like dead or whatever. He might need professional help and seeing a school counsler or another counsler might benefit his problems. You shouldn't feel so guilty abouthow sad he is, you have to get on w/ your life and be around happy, supportive people. He could also be behaving this way to get your attention. It seems like you 2 still have a connection, try to get on and suggest he see someone to help him.