A story about a so called "father"

I want to know if anyone has the same problem as I do...
he's supposed to be in jail through all of this but they put him on work release but he isnt even looking for a stupid job he is too busy causing all of this trouble

my dad is a total manwh.re...

he is a 32 year old who still lives with his mom. im 13 years old and all my life I knew he didnt want anything to do with me. yet he was always around because I was always at my nanas (his moms) he gave me a brother from a girl dianne ETHAN I love ethan though im so close to him. its probably because he doesnt care about either of us, me or ethan.not as much as that f.cker Alex. stupid alex is from another f.cken chick dang it my dad is such a f.cken bastard. him and michelle (alex's mom) are always on and off fighting calling the f.cking cops on each other and crap like that BUT theyre still together those stupid ho*s ugh and because my dad called my tia for money to take her kids to disneyland and she said no they werent going (michelle was going with alex) he started talking stupid crap about eddie (my tias b/f) and she called michelle a b.tch
so he went kissing up to michelle telling her what she said and michelle called my tia kim and started saying stupid crap (come on b.tch is a stupid word ...grow up a..holes) and she left my tia a message about blah blah blah...your have ghetto a.. kids... AND she called her the and word that ryhmes with tigger. my tia got mad ...yet talks to her if she says oh hi kim and crap like that stupid bastard is scared and trying to avoid what she called her. I dont even look at her or say hi.
THEN my dad called my mom asking if SHE COULD GIVE HIM MONEY TO TAKE ME to disneyland...
WHAT THE H-E-double hockey stick(-L-L) IS UP WITH HIM he owes my mom like $30,000 in child support and he thinks he can just go and ask her for money like that?!!?!?! I mean why didnt his stupid b.tch pay for the dang tickets? oh she doesnt have enough he says yeah right like I wouldve gone anyways ...
my mom said no
so he starts calling her a sk.nk and all that crap because she said no. he acts like a stupid child. and he tells her...oh well get the adoption papers and that crap HE DOESNT EVEN KNOW WHAT THE H-E-double hockeystick (-L-L) he's talking about retard!!!
A COUPLE DAYS BEFORE ALL OF THAT:
I came home from school and I didnt say hi to him because I didnt really feel like talking to anybody at the moment so I went to the kitchen table and started doing homework...like ten minutes later...what you dont know how to say hi? he tells me
I said no
he gets all butt-chapped about it and starts talking crap.
OH WELL WHAT THE F.CK
(I guess my mom had called him some days before telling him stuff because he's never there for me only for ALEX)
he's like:
and why are you having your stupid mom call me saying stupid sh.t .I already accepted the fact that im not going to be the one to walk you down the aisle. and I do love ALEX more than YOU...

what the F.CK?!?!?!?!?! just because I didnt tell him hi he says all of that crap ...I still didnt talk to him...

WELL ANYWAYS BACK TO AFTER THAT AT ALL OF THE FIGHTING...
like a week after that I went back to my nanas for a day because I could never stay with her because of that sh.t head...he was there I didnt give a crap...
I just walked into my nanas room and looked to see what was on tv. I was lying on the bed when he walks in hi daughter in my head im like WTF I am not your daughter remember you stupid retard...
he gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek and forehead (he didnt even say sorry or anything)
I just layed like nothing not hugging him back it was torture. when he stood up I looked at him and looked away right away and when he left the room I took a deep breathe because the entire time he was in there it was like I couldnt breathe my eyes got all watery I felt it I wanted to cry because I knew he did not mean it.

I went to my nanas house again last week after school
when we were there me and my cousin valarie were watching epic movie...when him and his wh.re got there. they were talking about how my tia kim was pregnant and I heard him say well michelle is pregnant too ...I thought I bet she is you guys never stop doing your sh.t
thats when I walked in...I didnt even try looking over there it was as if they werent even there
ON PURPOSE just to piss him off I started talking about my boyfriend (he didnt know I had)
I told my tia if she would let him go to her house and maybe me and him could stay outside at the park ...she knew why I did that too...shes like yeah but I have to approve of him first...and my dad was like WHO??? and we just kept talking and not answering him which made him mad WHO?!?!?!?!?! he yells
my tia just says one of marissa's friends he starts going:
OH I DONT GIVE A SH.T IF SHE IGNORES ME ILL IGNORE HER ALL MY LIFE!!! (I dont see why he didnt just shut the f.ck up if he didnt care)
and to make him even more mad I told him :AND JUST TO LET YOU KNOW IM HAVING A FRIEND BRING ME CONDOMS..
he didnt say anything my tia started laughing we were getting in the car when he yells out the door : YEAH GO BE A STUPID PROSTITUTE LIKE YOUR MOM!!!
my tia kim was like tell him: and you go be a f.cking ho. like your stupid b.tch!
WHICH I DID YELL AT HIM and im hope they both heard it nothing else was heard from either of them... my nana (his mom) seems to be on his side because he's like just leave him alone did you hear what your mom told him? and stupid crap like that I told her off you start backing up my dad in front of me shoot ill say what I want my tia kim was like get it all out marissa its better you get it out then you attempt suicide or something...my nana is like whatever I hate them all who back them up and that stupid kid alex is always in the car when they pick me up theyre lucky I dont freaking sock him in the face.

wow..
all I have to tell yu is that just trust God.
he will always be there for you. I know its hard bkuz yu don't see him, but yu can feel him there..
just close your eyes and tell hi, God help me please fill me with your love. tell himm all these wonderfull thingd and yu will feel an answer with a warm sensation in your heart.
you see God loves yu with all his heart
your his daughter he created yu. noone is a mistake we all came her for 1 reason
remember that your Gods treasure
your like a unique pearl someone so value able..

This is just sad.
Do you pay attention in your English class when your teacher was telling you how to write a story? Maybe not.
Anyway, I'd say pray about your situation because you cant change people but you can change yourself. Your father may be a jerk (no disrespect at all) but thats the person that he is. You should learn from it and move forward with your life so that you can become a better person. Any what many women do is tend to attract men that are like their father (not done on purpose but thats all theyre used to). Please dont make that mistake because as you can see he no self control and you wouldnt want to experiencethat all over again. Stay in school, do something constructive with yourself and respect your dad because he is still your father and move on with your life ok.
Good luck.

your father is a deadbeat. just like mine. let go of him. dont talk to him unless you have to. if he makes another comment about him loving someone more just say h*ell yeah I know you do thats why you need to stay the fu*k away from me you stupid basterd. tell him how you feel and if he says hes not walking you down the aisle be like yeah I didnt want you to anyways he** your not even invited to my wedding

I couldn't even get through this entire thing.

Obviously your mom has custody, if she's getting child support, but I think your dad has more visitation than he deserves. I'd bring it up with your mom and get him back in court. Maybe you could get him a bit farther out of your life.