ok, honey....you don't have not one thing to be thankful for? not one thing to love to do? not one thing to smile about? I don't give a damn what you look like, so don't blame ugliness or your not pretty enough or some gibberish like that. You need some help. NOW. If you really want help, you need to stop feeling sorry for yourself and get it. you are the ONLY one who can really help your situation. YOu need something in your life to make you smile feel that your good at, and someone who you are thankful for. I highly doubt no one loves you. There would be a lot of pain in this world if you decided to kill yourself. Many people would suffer without you. There would be lots of heartache everyday lived. The people who love you would NEVER be the same. that would change theirs lives for ever. I believe that every single person on this earth has a special part they were created to play. Take responsibility and find your purpose!!!! No one else can do what you are soposed to do. it is your job duty! Think about what you are doing and how it will affect everyone you love. Start doing service for people, complete strangers. For some reason, that always gives me some warm fuzzies in my heart knowing I made someone's day simply by one tiny wink or smile or compliment. even holding the door open for someone and when they say thank you, instead of simply replying, "your welcome", say something crazy like, "you better believe it sister!!!" and smile at them really big and sincere. It makes my day to make others day. try it. I hope you find relief. YOu can get through this. what does not kill us, makes us strong. YOu not alone....never foret that. OPen up to someone.