Whether you have an eating disorder or not is about technical definitions...

and I cannot tell you how to fix yourself, mainly because I have had the same problems for the last 8 years and I still havent fixed myself...

But, things in my life have gotten better, and I can credit it to my several therapists...

I have been through hell and back in the last couple of years... Have you been to the psych ward? They are not fun places.. I ended up there after a cutting accident (never thought it would happen to me...) and after a suicide attempt I was kicked out of my college... I did eventually make it back, graduated with a 3.85 even though I was drunk every day for 2 years... Problem is I always figured that if I was functioning then I must be fine. But life is more than about functioning...And people can help... I think you should give it a shot...

O ... my mom would kill me if she knew I drink.. my best friends mom is like that she knows what my friend does but she can't really stop her